Ten Toes Down: Standing Through Every Season

A Look Inside

Chapter One: The Quiet Conversation

I am ten toes down because I have learned that standing does not always mean you are unafraid.

Sometimes standing means you are tired, hurt, disappointed, overwhelmed, and still determined not to give up. It means life has knocked you down more times than you can count, but something inside of you—something God-given—keeps telling you to get back up.

I have stood through seasons of love and seasons of no love. I have stood through broken relationships, painful memories, motherhood, friendship, marriage, loss, laughter, and tears. I have stood through moments when I felt seen and moments when I felt completely alone.

But I am still here.

The number one thing that carried me through every season was my relationship with God. When I did not know what to say to people, I learned to speak to God. When I could not say it out loud, I learned to write it down. My journals became my quiet conversations—with myself, with my pain, with my memories, and most importantly, with God.

That verse reminds me that brokenness never meant I was abandoned. God was close in every season—especially the ones I thought would break me.